I feel so low down and trapped in this job. All I do constantly eat you-know-what. Nothing is ever good enough-not for clients, workers, or the company. I'm hamstringed and will never succeed or get ahead. I hate my life from 8-5, Monday through Friday. Manpower management acts like they care, but they do not. They claimed they'd help me through a hard time, but never did. They claimed growth was here, it isn't. They just tell me what I want to hear, to shut me up so I go back to making them money. Why should I care anymore? Why should I break my back at a job, just to enrich everyone, and I mean everyone above me, when they cannot even compensate me fairly? My manager is such a joke but gets to make a very comfortable living, while not pulling her weight. She never brings in new business and is rarely in the office. She leads a leisurely life, while we toil. When she is at work (the 3 hours a week we actually see her) she spends most of the time loudly taking personal calls in front of us. Her claims of having our back and caring about us are as hollow and superficial as she is. The song Positively 14th Street comes to mind. Why care about a company that only views me as a resource, their word not mine? Resources are meant to be exploited, so I guess it is accurate. When they finally do offer me advancement, it is for a garbage job that no one else wants, with insulting pay, reporting to a bigger fraud (who has no business in their role either). It is hard to really convey the anger and frustration I feel. I can't talk to my manager, because she will pass the buck and try to absolve herself of any responsibility, two things she actually is good at. No management or leadership at this company really cares about the nuts and bolts workers, which is fine. But they need to stop feeding us lines- it is insulting and enraging. It builds one up, just to be demolished by disappointment. I don't know, but I should have done better in my own life so I would not have to be in this punishment of a job. A job where I find myself immediately beholden to a fool, and a wage slave to CEO's and corporate shareholders. I will never have a family, leisure, comfort or security if I continue on in this role. I will just continue to thank them, for barely covering my expenses and having little to none left with which to save or have fun at the end of the month. Instead, I'll watch others in the company and my own office do so. Some are great people who deserve it, and should enjoy it. Many don't and will never be a friend of mine and I will never be a member of the cult. Some here don't even realize that they already are; lesser fodder for the greater vampires to feed on. A roll of fat on a great Leviathan. I hope, in the case of some managers, that their narcissistic, hypocritical, egotistical behavior provides a comforting, ready shield to reality.
